i feel like a fucking genius whenever i do homework; i feel like an idiot right now.

damn my predisposition to self-pity! i stopped updating my livejournal because my trip to england revitalized my self-esteem and my wonder with the world and my love for life, and it was getting too emo! emo is gibberish! yet i'm coming back to it! i hate the number 360! three hundred and sixty! it makes me want scream!

my friends don't understand that i don't try to be this way, and that i am this way, because I AM THIS WAY.