i don't write in code, but i guess i am vague on this weblog, sometimes. believe it or not, i inhibit myself, lest i be an overflowing flood of emotional turmoil and self-deprecation.

i don't want the world to love me too much, but i do want the world to love me. i am just a regular kid seeking attention, but not necessarily absolute acceptance. i am introspective to the extent that it is over-indulgent. i am wrong about most things, most of the time, but i always feel right in a righteous way, no matter what. by this criteria, i am as ignorant as the next guy, an inside joke on myself, of which i am the only one who cares, yet everyone is on.

i know i am weird, but there really isn't anything i can do about it. when i try, i only get weirder, so what's the point. i don't care about being misunderstood anymore, since i understand everyone well enough to know that they'll always think i'm something else. let's just agree to disagree, shall we?

i need a chill pill, or better yet, a shut-up-the-face pill. is there anything on the market i can easily apply, like those nicotine patches, to combat pretentiousness?