i don't know what i think about the idea of me "looking up to people." hero worship. i don't really look up to anyone, though i do admire the contributions people have made in the past, if that makes any sense to you. i bet it doesn't, but i really don't care.

amongst the few people i can think of, my list of persons with admirable feats include: michael jordan, bruce lee, jimmy hendrix, and a score of others. you know, the staple heroes, the ones you'd be a fool for thinking they were anything less of one.

but then there are also my own personal idols, that are probably unique to me. of course, this list includes various rockstars, film directors, writers and such, but there's somewhat of a secret side to all of this. people really don't know how much time i've invested studying the works of various online artists, photographers, and regular folk who have websites. it's weird. i read these people's sites routinely, and a lot of times, the owners of the websites don't even know who i am. i'm too afraid to approach them, either by aim, or via some other form of online communication. i'm so much of a fucking pussy, that i'd be crushed if these people didn't think i was cool.

well, not really.

it probably would have been very interesting if i had listed all the sites here that i mentioned, but i've chosen not to do that. NONE OF YOU WILL EVER KNOW!