inspiration plays with me but never seems to sieze my full attention.

i am always sad, except when i'm happy.

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i haven't felt this way... since... amelie? or was it lost in translation?

i don't know. i just loved it. i'd put it in my top three. fucking beautiful.

happy end - kaze wo atsumete

i realized that i haven't really gone outside of the renton area since i came back from the philippines. what's happening?

have you ever been to wallingford? have you ever been drunk and high on a merry-go-round at night, somewhere in ballard? have you ever, just, like, fuckin' lived?

these are questions i can affirm with answers that aren't quite satifying. i grow more inexperienced and restless as days go by where i lay idle, wasting my pursuit for understanding, saying goodbye to my childhood but running away from becoming an adult.

just say it!

no, i'm not beating around any bush. this is how it is. this is THE angst.

funny, i used to think about dying more when i was younger, now i'm more worried about not living enough.

i ain't smokin' so i can see the eifel tower!

gotta do something about that cholesterol though. gotta do something about the migraines i create for myself, i'm sure that can't be healthy.

gotta do something. gotta respect my mom more too, even though she's upped her nagging a bit too much.

i am so goddamn cool! but i'm losing it.

i realized that i haven't really gone outside of the renton area since i came back from the philippines. what's happening?

have you ever been to wallingford? have you ever been drunk and high on a merry-go-round at night, somewhere in ballard? have you ever, just, like, fuckin' lived?

these are questions i can affirm with answers that aren't quite satifying. i grow more inexperienced and restless as days go by where i lay idle, wasting my pursuit for understanding, saying goodbye to my childhood but running away from becoming an adult.

just say it!

no, i'm not beating around any bush. this is how it is. this is THE angst.

funny, i used to think about dying more when i was younger, now i'm more worried about not living enough.

i ain't smokin' so i can see the eifel tower!

gotta do something about that cholesterol though. gotta do something about the migraines i create for myself, i'm sure that can't be healthy.

gotta do something. gotta respect my mom more too, even though she's upped her nagging a bit too much.

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has it really taken me this long to realize that everything i say is silly and no one cares what i think?

but i'm so cool!

well, it looks like j. paul is talking to me again. hopefully i'll be able to swing by the tribes office this week and get my ghost dog back. i got that dvd with the gift certificate i got for winning second place in ms. johnson's animation contest my freshman year. oh, the memories.

speaking of dvd's, season six of stargate sg-1 has been out for quite some time!

i'm really pissed off that a movie like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind had to come out, but i'm going to see it anyway. jersey girl too. in fact, i can't wait to see jersey girl.

did you know that jack nicholson didn't know the person he thought to be his sister was really his mother until he was 37 years old?