i was driving home early in the morning last night, well, i guess it was this morning, today, and not last night, but who the fuck cares, not me, well, i guess i do care since i'm fucking ranting about it, semantics, whatever, fuck it, anyway, where the hell did my story go?
oh yeah, i was driving home early in the morning and i thought of something. i'm totally (ms. anderson said i use too many adverbs and she is absolutely right about that! okay, from now on, no more fucking adverbs! succinct city!) living out the story after the movie finishes with an ending that hints-at a sequel, but the sequel never being made. wait, what the hell, that may not make sense to you. give me a second to explain myself, or at least let this messy, babbling stream-of-consciousness leave the proper traces of information for your brain's nerve endings to construct some sort of inadvertant understanding -
wait,
fuck that! i don't want you to interpret this. i want you to know. okay,
anyway, what i meant by saying that i'm living out the story after the movie finishes is that the surreal roller coaster of my life's theatrics that held the attention of my mind for most of the first half of 2004 are done with, although the stopping point is lost and not readily apparent to me. i have some ideas, but i won't deconstruct all of that stuff here. all of the profundity would be misinterpreted as bullshit.
but it's not bullshit. it means a lot to me; right now it means the world to me. i guess i didn't really say anything with this post, except that my ability to communicate anything on this blog has regressed, though i'm still as self-indulgent in a philosophically-fucked way. and if you didn't catch any of that in this post, thanks for not noticing.
people are saying
garden state is this generation's
graduate? first
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, now this? i haven't actually seen
garden state, but i'm really worried the movies i wanted to make are being made before my eyes! i've been sleeping too long, i guess.
"why did you put me on this earth, god?" -- do people who ask that question believe in free will? or am i missing the point?
church is boring. i think jesus would be bored by it too, after a while at least. unless, of course, i was jesus, in which case i'd never get tired of hearing about myself.
why did you put me on this earth? god?
